The beautiful life

It is amazing how God can create such beauty, & we just keep going about our lives never taking the time to see what is right in front of us! Its even more curious how we try to impose our rules for living on Jesus. Take for example the phareses when Jesus healed the man w/ the withered hand on the sabbath. In Mark 2:27-28 Jesus tells us the sabbath was created for man not the other way aroundl So Take time back from all those things trying to stop u & enjoy life. Live hard, Pray hard, Die well.

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Blessed

I have to say that i am blessed and highly favored of the Most High God. I have a wife who wants to be a Godly mother and wife it is a struggle but she hasnt given up. I have 2 Great sons whom i love with all my heart. No matter how i behave toward them sometimes i love them dearly. My wife has a difficult jobs being with the boys all the time its very demanding, but she handles it well. Lory may not be superwoman, but she is my wonder woman.

Life & Death

I never thought life would be like this. For me i have had to fight for most of what i got, now i feel like everytime i turn around i am struggling for something. Keeping my home life up, spending time with my family, paying bills, getting used to the new job. To some people this may be easy, for me its easier said than done. The smallest of luxuries can cause conflict in my marriage and the smallest of statements. I will be happy once i get used to the new work schedule.

Both of the boys are growing so quickly, and i will miss some pretty big moments of Richard's but somebody has to work. I hope i made the right decession about this job. Lord please help i feel a sense of dispair and need you i am so low now i could let go and come home. I feel like a child right now instead of a husband or father its more like a failure.

Its been a while

I know it has been a while but life happens and keeps you from doing all the things you would normally want to do. The boys are getting so big i cant believe that Richard is going to be 1 in several months Ethan is learning so much he is going to be in school before we know it. I am going to be starting a new job next week and i am very excited, it will be a change mostly evening hours and saturdays but the best part i get SUNDAYS OFF. Lory and i are slowly starting to do better we are going away next weekend just the two of us for our anniversary and it should be nice. One downside to the new job is i will not be able to go to mens group anymore and i am going to miss meeting with that group of guys. The Lord knows what i need when i need it and he will continue to provide for me.

Another Late Nite

Here it is another late nite unable to sleep. The baby has been stirring  so i got him back to sleep. I want to sleep so bad but my mind is refusing to let me stop. It keeps pushing and saying your not tired. I want to make it to the mens breakfast at church but the way things are looking that might not happen AGAIN. I miss having friends to talk to on a regular basis. Wendall never answers his phone any more, and i just dont seem to have anyone else i can talk with on a frequent basis.  I have my wife and i love her but there are times its her i need to talk about and my mother is willing to listen but, i wish there was someone else some of the time. 

I wonder if i am a horrible Christian man. we all make mistakes and we just need to ask forgiveness of our sins and have a repentant heart. I think the devil is trying to tear me down since my mind is in a weakened state. I must always remember that i will continue to sin until the return of Christ. It does not meant that i should sin to receive more grace, but that when i sin there is sufficient grace to forgive me, and i should strive for sanctification.  Because there is no condemnation in Christ Jesus who paid the cost for me at Golgotha.